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01 January 2015 @ 12:33 pm

state of mind: accomplished
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Good morning! Welcome new friends! I thought I’d take advantage of the recent friending meme and indulge in some house-keeping stuffs.

1. I'm not good with intro posts so there shan't be one. :) However, there is a sticky post here that tells you a bit about my likes and dislikes. To get you, very briefly, up to speed, key points in no order at all...
a) I'm a Montessori educator, working both as a teacher and in administration. There's a lot of work talk here.
b) I'm a Bostonian through and through. However, I'm currently living in Prague - such an adventure!
c) girl_in_prague is my gf and is referred to as Mish here.
d) Not to be outdone, Colin Morgan is my pretend husband and Spencer Smith is flawless.
e.) tipgardner is my best boy and generally called Tip in these places. Sometimes, that boy. 

2. I don't read on filters. I may suck at commenting but I always read. However, I do post on filters, mainly because I try to spare some of you my full inanity. There’s also a lot of soul-searching going on and being documented here; I’m aware that not every one is comfortable with that so I try to be respectful. That said, I’m a pretty open person so you’re welcome to hang out wherever. If you're just here for the fandom stuff and want nothing to do with the RL ramblings, I promise there will be absolutely no hard feelings. Likewise if you're one of my former fandom friends who has become a beloved RL friend and are getting tired about my increasing ridiculousness regarding Colin Morgan's cheekbones of d00m or Spencer Smith's flawlessness, tell me! So there's that.

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4. Please know that every day is de-friending amnesty here. If you decide this place isn’t for you, that’s alright. I’ll be sorry to see you go but there won’t be any hard feelings or drama. In addition, I occasionally make flist cuts of my own. Mostly people from former fandoms I don’t talk to anymore. I might have made cuts in error (click-happy, wot?) so feel free to PM if you think there’s been a mistake.

5. I like being comfortable in my space and knowing that people are here because they enjoy my company. I like honest yet polite communication and appreciate healthy, respectful debate. We might not always agree but my journal is a safe space where everyone is welcome to express their opinions and share their thoughts.

And that’s all she wrote! That wasn’t too bad, was it?

eta. why can't you edit polls? I thought of another game! Dropwords. And, I really do know how to spell David's name. 
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01 December 2014 @ 12:54 pm
 So, it's been over seven months since I last posted and even then my posting was extremely sporadic. This makes me so sad. I'm nostalgic for a time that seems so very long ago.  And heartsick for friends that I'm no longer in touch with and things I've missed completely.  I'm so glad I get to keep up with many of you on twitter/facebook/email but it's not the same, is it? That personal connection seems much harder to maintain but I'm going to try harder.

This weekend, I went through some of my old posts looking for some specific information and it was such a delight. Even when reliving some of my hardships I've faced, it was so much fun to see the names of old friends, remember conversations and laugh over things that happened. LJ or, more specifically, the friends I've made through LJ have gotten me through so much.  I feel so incredibly blessed and grateful to have you in my life, even those who no longer are.

In terms of an update, things are going decently well. Mish and I are still in love which is a plus. :)  We're enjoying married life and trying find ways to start a family. Very exciting!!  Work continues apace. My boss is causing a lot of stress and anxiety in my life but the school is doing well.  We have a good team and I've seen a lot of growth over the last few years.  I've started taking my Montessori Elementary training which had been a dream of mine for years. It's hard work but I'm loving it.  I've only completed one out of the five modules so i still have a ways to go.  I start my MEd next year as well.  Lots of study but ii's all good.

Mish and I are currently planning a trip home for the summer.  Mum hasn't been very well over the past few months and I'm hoping tha the starrs will align and allow me to spend a little more time with her.  We'll be in the States in July again - probably 3 weeks in Boston (with a few days in NYC with Mr. Gardner) and then a week in CA.  As always I'm super excited to be spending some time at home.  It's always a crazy few weeks crammed with people and places to see, things to do and, of course, restuarants to eat at. But it's wonderful and it's home. Can't beat that!

Anyway, I just wanted to check in and see who's still around.  I think I'd like to try to post more again as I always found LJ a safe space.  Let's see what happens!

I hope everyone is well and happy and doing fun things! Would love to catch up! <3
state of mind: contemplative
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21 April 2014 @ 08:40 pm
*waves*  So, I'm well into the 1st day of a 3 day break and it's amazing. The last few weeks have proven how desperately I need a break so this is a welcome relief. I suspect I need more than 3 days off but at this point I'll take whatever I can!

I'm feeling especially homesick today as it's Marathon Monday in Boston. Having grown up in Boston and within a marathon-obsessed family, the day has always been special to me.  It shows my pride as a Bostonian but also my pride in living on the marathon route.

I remember as a tiny child lining up on route for hours passing out cups of water with my father. And, later, after my father fell ill, taking my brother to do the same. Throughout college my friends and I lined Boylston street screaming for the winners and for the stragglers, who were also winners. Since it's a state holiday, the festivities didn't end when I started work - they just extended to include the early Sox game. There's been a handful of Marathons missed, all because I was living away from my beautiful city on the day.

And then last year. I was following the race on twitter when both my phone and TL started exploding with messages. Many of the texts and emails asking about my brother who was on duty not far from the finish line. I sat in my living room for hours, heartsick and homesick.

Then later, while much of the city was still asleep and the hunt/chase for the suspects was going on, I was sitting at my desk listening to the police scanner and praying for all of Boston. It was such an emotional and shocking day, one that was only made better when I finally got to talk to my brother.  The outpouring of support for first responders was amazing. Even now I tear up thinking of the encouragement and kindness A was shown, especially as he guarded the finish line for days on end.

The victims will forever live in our hearts and this day will forever be a day to remember our Boston community's strength and perseverance.

Today is Marathon Day and it is glorious. The sun is shining brightly, the sky is blue, and spring is in the air.  Sure the Red Sox lost but we can't have everything. More importantly, the destruction, chaos, pain, and horror of last year has passed; in it's place is blooming hope, love, and the warm spirit that the future, on this day, is bright. Boston, I love you.
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31 March 2014 @ 01:05 pm
It has been a really, really long time since I've posted. This makes me incredibly sad. I keep thinking I should post but can't tind the time or the energy or, worst, the words. I'm thrilled that I keep up with so many of you via twitter, facebook and good ol' email but I still miss LJ.  I miss the community and the way things were during it's heyday. And that's apparently motivation (in a very odd way) for me to post.

It's been 9 months since I last posted and man, things have changed! Misha and I got married in July, which was amazing. We married in Boston surrounded by close friends and family. my childhood friend served as our officiant and I sobbed the entire time. It was ridiculous. And awesome. Every once in a while I'm hit with a wave of "this is my life, I'm married to this amazing woman and I get to experience this." It's pretty humbling, to be honest.

And, since we didn't really get one last year, we're currently planning our honeymoon! We'll be in Boston and FL for the month of July. Yay! Boston will mostly be hanging out with friends and eating good foods.  Florida - we're going to Disney. It's one of those all-out trips (well, within a budget) where we're staying on Disney property and trying to do as many things as possible. We're so excited for it. Yes, we are secretly 6-year-olds.

Aside from that, I've been insanely busy leading our school through a re-accreditation process. It was a 2 year journey that included a huge self-evaluation process that had me writing hundreds and hundreds of pages. The whole thing culminated a couple weeks ago with an on-site inspection team from the States. They were in our school for 4 days reviewing all the paperwork, observing in our classrooms and grilling me about all aspects of the school.  It was super stressful but also really validating. They found a lot of positives and all of their recommendations were things we were either aware of or already actively correcting.  We won't get the official results until May/June but I'm pretty confident we passed. Huzzah.

I also might have celebrated my 40th but we're largely ignoring that.  :)

Fandom wise, haven't had much time for reading of late but I'm still all over Sterek and have recently been exploring 1D/Radio 1 which I blame quichey for entirely. I still love my old faves and wish I had more time to revisit them.  *sigh*

Hope everyone is well and happy and all sorts of good things! :) 
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26 June 2013 @ 11:33 am
I’ve spent the last four hours or so shaking and crying as I tried to catch up with the news and my riveting twitter feed.  Wendy David is my new hero. Seriously, that woman gets all the respect and admiration and she deserves it for being a complete badass. So glad that there are people like this in American government. Now we need to keep getting more people like this in our political sphere.

Our (American) voices are best heard by VOTING (I'm never going to shut up about that one). It's going to be even more difficult to get the vote out with the new SCOTUS ruling so we have to get out there and fight even harder. Ms. Davis and her colleagues serve as a wonderful example of determination and dedication in public service.

But right now, all my thoughts are with the US Supreme Court and the decisions that will likely be handed down, in a few scant hours, on two marriage equality cases.

I remember how disappointed I was when DOMA was signed into law; back then I had no idea what a truly vile piece of law it is.  It has caused incredible hardships to thousands of gay and lesbians families throughout the country. It is something that significantly affects my lovely fiancée and I.

As of right now, if DOMA is upheld, Misha and I will have little opportunity to move back to the States. I wouldn’t be able to sponsor her for a spousal visa so our options are the unlikely work sponsorship, to remain in Europe or for me to return home alone.  It doesn’t matter that in 24 days (omg!!), Misha and I will be legally wed in Massachusetts. DOMA means that there is no federal protection or benefits. There are 1000’s rights, protections and benefits that we would be denied.

I sit here, sick to my stomach and shaking as I wait for my rights to be decided. It’s ludicrous that we’re even in this position. But the fact is, we do. And so, I’m trying to remain positive. It is my hope that DOMA will finally be laid to rest….that it can become a piece of history which future generations will shake their heads over. God, I hope our future generations live in a kinder, more just world than ours.

It is my hope that the time, energy and effort spent on fighting DOMA and Prop 8 will come to fruition.  It would be the end of a long and ugly era in the States.  I proud that I have been able to contribute and so very grateful to those who have stood alongside (or far, far ahead of me) fighting the good fight. It would be amazing if Misha's and my marriage could be legally recognized by my government.

Today, like many of us, I’ll be glued to the live feed of the Supreme Court decisions. And all I can think is please, please, please.
state of mind: hopeful
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27 March 2013 @ 01:50 pm
So, um, hi!! Yeah, it's been 4 months since I posted. Oops?

I'm so insanely busy with work this year. I can't really even pinpoint why. Not much has changed in terms of structure, scheduling, etc as compared to last year but this year is hugely stressful. I average 60 hours a week and when I'm home, I'm just exhausted. I hate it because I miss LJ a lot and I feel so disconnected from many of you here. I don't even know who's still around these days. But, anyway, I didn't come here to whine.

Rather, I wanted to share some awesome news. girl_in_prague and I are engaged! This is likely old news for most of you as it's already been announced on twitter and facebook but we're still deliriously happy.

It's been a difficult journey as we dealt with the legalities of it all. For quite a while, we were advised not to get married in the States as it could cause future immigration issues for us. But, as we enter an age where DOMA might actually be repealed, our family lawyer's advice has changed. It is an amazing feeling, especially right now. I live in hope that the Supreme Court will make the right decision.

As for us, words can't even begin to express how happy and excited we are. Our wedding will be this July in Boston. Yay!! So far location and general reception plans have been set. Seems to me that the biggest issue will be the dresses.  :)

Misha made this icon for us years and years ago, when we were just starting to date and figure ourselves out. I never even imagined that this would be our future but the icon is still pretty apt. Thank you so much to those of you who have been with us through the long haul and years of long-distance pining. Thank you to newer friends who don't have the slightest clue what we've been through.  And, thank you, from the bottom of our hearts, to those of you who have supported and fought for our right to marry.  I truly believe that full equality is getting closer and closer, friends and all our efforts make a difference.
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09 September 2012 @ 06:02 pm

Today is a great day!! It's just been utterly delightful (and productive!) and I'm looking forward to the evening as well.

Mish and I are entertaining for the first time (well, aside from our families which don't count). The gentleman who is coming over is from CT and a huge Pats fan. I'm so excited to have a fellow expat who loves football AND the Pats.

And then there's the general excitement about it being the Pats season opener! Basically happy IL is super, super happy.

Hope you all are having wonderful Sundays! Go Pats!!

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12 April 2012 @ 04:47 pm

{Take the 100 Things challenge!}

Totally jumping on the bandwagon! :)

Those of you who have been around for a while might recall that I used to do lots of good things lists. I'm a big believer in the fact that there's always good out in our world, even when it seems the most dark. My lists were a way to cheer me, to help me remain calm and positive in the face of trials and brought me much joy. So, this project will be something like that. 100 things that I think are pretty awesome. Thoughts/concepts, products, books, music...whatever comes to mind as something awesome that I want to share. I'm really looking forward to it!
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13 February 2012 @ 08:12 pm
Hullo, my lovelies! I feel like it's been forever since I've posted! I'm not sure why - but my posting has been really sporadic of late. It's a combination of not enough to say and too much to say. If that makes any sense!  Anyway, i'm going to try to be a bit more present, both here and in my flist. LJ is still such a fantastic place to me and I certainly benefit greatly when I'm participating, not only by interacting with friends (which is awesome) but also by having a safe place to share/vent/contemplate. I miss LJ when I'm not here and then get frustrated with myself. All this to say, I'll probably be around a lot more now. :) 

Also, I am making a wee flist cut. Mostly people/comms from fandoms that I've drifted away from or people that I no longer interact with. But, that clicky button is repetitive and tricky so there's a good chance I'll make a mistake while clicking away. If you think I've made a mistake please bring it to my attention? 

Okay, I have to go finish replying to a bunch of work emails now. Hope all of you are well and happy.  <3
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24 November 2011 @ 01:58 pm

Happy Thanksgiving to all those who celebrate! I hope that those of you who don't are having wonderful Thursdays! 

It is decidedly strange to be sitting at work on a day when I know the majority of my friends and family are already rushing around preparing amazing Thanksgiving meals.  I keep thinking of all of you and wondering what you're doing. In case you're wondering, I'm writing up a report on my observations in one of my classrooms.  

Tonight, we're hosting a mini-Thanksgiving dinner. I'll be cooking a roasted turkey breast with stuffing and will serve sides of potatoes, brussel sprouts and cranberry sauce. There's already a pumpkin pie chilling in the fridge, waiting for whipped cream. It will be much smaller than I'm used to. We won't have all the foods that I usually serve. We don't even have enough chairs for the dining table. But it will be glorious.  

Somehow, amidst all my homesickness, I forgot why I love Thanksgiving so much. Yes, it's a lot about the fellowship and there's no denying I'm missing my fam and kiribaby's fam right now, but I have my most important family here with me. But truly, it's about giving thanks and, man, I have a fuckton to be grateful for. My life is richly blessed and when I really stop to think about it, I am overcome with gratitude and joy.  

So today, when I'm so far away from one of my homes, I'm there with all of you in spirit. I'm with those of you who are feeling extra lonely this holiday and those of you who are celebrating with new loved ones. I'm with those of you who have to work and those who can't find work. We are all where we are on our journey and wherever that is, it's perfect. I hope all of are able to find your multitude of riches today, however small they might seem. 

Happy Thanksgiving, my lovelies. May your days be filled with love, laughter and gratitude. 
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25 June 2011 @ 10:23 am
I'm rather tired and low today. It's a combination of lots of things, including missing JJ something fierce and my stupid back hurting because I picked up a box that was too heavy (counting down to the chiro appointment at 11am). So...time for a good things list!

♥ Obviously, the first and most amazing! Go NY! I'm so fucking happy you've proved me wrong.

♥ The lovely hermette has a pretty party going on. Go and play! Enjoy the preeeeety!

♥  I've been meaning to share this video for a while but can't figure out how to embed it. Anyway, I think it's one of the most beautiful, hopeful and heartwarming things I've seen in a while. Wes and Mark's wedding

♥ My Red Sox are making me obscenely happy. Long way to go and all that but damn, they're happy making. 

♥ There is the prospect of having the house to myself for awhile today. It's sad that this gets me so excited but, well, it does. I can't wait!

♥ Cooking shall be mine today! Yes, it shall! There will be chicken curry, brussel sprouts and peanut butter cookies. Maybe more!

Alright, I'm going to go do some stretching, get ready for the chiro and, most importantly, try to keep focusing on the positive. What's your good things for today?  <3
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Yesterday I headed to the neighbourhood cinema to see the recording of the NY Philharmonic's staged production of Company. There are a lot of musicals that I love but Company is up there at the top of the list. I would estimate that I've seen it at least forty times. If you add in the numbers of times I've worked the show, that number easily doubles.

This was one of the most amazing productions of Company I've ever seen. The cast was utterly brilliant. The supporting line-up was full of talent; Katie Finneran, Craig Bierko and Martha Plimpton were particularly engaging. I wasn't sure what I was expecting from Stephen Colbert but he gave an understated, spot-on performance and really pulled off one of my favourite songs, Sorry-Grateful. I have to admit, I was distracted a bit by Christina Hendrick's boobs but her take on April was great. 

But Neil Patrick Harris as Bobby? Oh, he blew me away completely and made me fall in love with him a little bit. Also Patti LuPone's Ladies Who Lunch left me in tears. So very different from Elaine Stritch's now famous rendition but just as compelling. After that song, I pretty much cried through the rest of the production and then left the theatre honest to god shaking. Company tends to touch me deeply; there's a lot in the show that resonates with me. But this was...indescribable. When I left the cinema I texted Mish "oh. my. fucking. god." That's still sums it up perfectly, imo. 

I seriously considered going to NY to see the production live but the expense plus time constraints made it near impossible. My wallet thanks me but fuck, I wish I could have seen this stunning performance in person. It's going to stay with me for a long time.  


Today's song of the day is Marry Me a Little from Company. It's Rupert Young's rendition from the 2011 production at the Southwark Playhouse. Another great production with an excellent take on Bobby by Rupert. 

In other news, today is also an awesome day because it's Ms. kaalee's birthday! Happy, happy dear heart. I hope that you have an absolutely fantastic day and that the year ahead is full of fabulous things! <3
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10 June 2011 @ 09:34 am
One of the big projects for today is to pack up all my books. Some of them are going into storage and a small select few are going with me to Prague. But the majority of them are being donated. It's kinda breaking my heart. I know I can find these books again, either in physical copies or simply for my kindle. But, well, I guess I'm pretty attached to my books. Reading was always an escape for me during my childhood and, in many ways, it still is.

In the past hour my copy of The People's History of the United States has transported me back to Sr. Nelson, who was the fiercest teacher I've ever had but also flipped my world upside down in the best possible way. My battered copy of Living with HIV brought back so very memories, some of the worst times of my life but also some of the most brilliant. That William Carlos Williams collection reminded me of a lost friend and the knowledge that you can learn from past mistakes and save a friendship on the brink. In the Complete Works of Shakespeare I found a love letter I'd tucked in there for safe-keeping; it was from a long-lost love but a lovely thing to come upon.  

And, silly as it may sound, I'm not ready to put some of these books into the donation pile. But, I can't keep them all either. So, I'd like to propose an exchange, if you'd like a book, I'd be happy to send you one. In exchange, i ask for a letter - it can be an actual letter, a postcard, a two-liner card; just something that reminds me that my books have gone to a good home. Does that sound reasonable? 
If you'd like to play, comment! I'll list some genres you can choose from and then we can discuss specifics. I'm not screening comments so I'll sort address questions out later. EVERYONE is welcome to play, as long as you don't mind giving me your address.  :) 
Genres:  history, biographies, textbooks (american history, lit. and a some education), teaching guides/resources, poetry, children's books and a bunch random novels. 

eta: one thing, if i'll be seeing you during our road trip of d00m, you'll be getting your book then.  <3
my soundtrack: High and Dry ~ Jamie Cullum
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26 May 2011 @ 07:20 am
I tweeted about this yesterday but wanted to link to it here as well. Found via @postsecret, Alan Rickman's good-bye letter as Snape to all Harry Potter fans. As many of you know, Snape was one of my favourite characters and I think Alan Rickman is such a class act. Yeah, I might have cried a bit reading this the first time. 

And, now I'm on such an HP kick! I think I'll indulge in some fic tonight. Maybe a couple of the classics. Anyone still in HP have recs?  What were your favourites?
In other news, dentist today. Ugh. Not even sure what we're doing. I just have a standing appointment for the next few weeks to get as much done before my free dental runs out. Whatever complaints I have about the job and my boss that was an amazing benefit.  
Alright, I'm off to work. Full-out day - I reckon busy is good. Hope y'all have wonderful days! Catch you on the flip side. <3
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Okay, that's enough of being whiny. In honour of national poetry month...

The Thing Is
by Ellen Bass

to love life, to love it even
when you have no stomach for it
and everything you've held dear
crumbles like burnt paper in your hands,
your throat filled with the silt of it.
When grief sits with you, its tropical heat
thickening the air, heavy as water
more fit for gills than lungs;
when grief weights you like your own flesh
only more of it, an obesity of grief,
you think, How can a body withstand this?
Then you hold life like a face
between your palms, a plain face,
no charming smile, no violet eyes,
and you say, yes, I will take you
I will love you, again.
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23 March 2011 @ 11:09 am

Just wanted everyone to know that I'm taking a wee step back. I'm sure it's just a brief hiatus but I didn't want anyone to worry. If you need me, please feel free to PM or email at inspiredlife01@gmail.com; I'd love to hear from you! Take care, be well and, most of all, be happy. &hearts;
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17 February 2011 @ 11:08 am
I had all these noble intentions to not post again until I've caught up on emails and messages but...you guys, my boyfriend is so fucking gorgeous! Seriously, I can't not share this snap. Look at his hair. *whimpers* My hair kink is alive and well; Mish and Mr. Morgan see to that. And the scruff.  And his wrist. *whimpers some more*

More pics over at gealach_ros' post. Okay, playground time is almost over so I must return to my classroom. I have a dentist appointment at 2pm and I'm hoping to not go back to work after so perhaps today will be my catch up day!  *smoooches the flist*

eta: my plushie and i survived the dentist (just barely!) but i'm still at work. *cries*
state of mind: flustered
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04 February 2011 @ 07:29 pm
I'm sick and tired. And sick and tired of being sick and tired. But at least it's Friday and I'm already home from work. Wooot!

Sadly, my brain is too fried to do the Seven Deadly Sins meme tonight. So far behind on everything! But, i'm kinda too tired for anything right now. I think I need some fluffy fic to go with the tea I just made. Maybe some bad tv.

Anyway, this ad is completely awesome. Love the kid, freaking adore the dad. 

Oh, thank you so, so much to everyone for their kind and absolutely lovely words over at the love meme. They cheered me muchly just when I most needed it.  <3

Happy weekend, lovelies!